Bro, I'm going to tell you to get yourself tested. It's better to know that you have herpes and not AIDS or HIV. And if you have herpes it's nothing really to the thousands of other things you can get in this lovely planet. Plus you don't want to spread that shit to other people. Especially if it's something serious. Probably not because I know nobody that's got HIV or anything like that (So please don't panic) so you have a good chance there. And even if you got Genital Herpes, you got a skin condition that rears it's ugly head every once every few times per year, and as the years progress it happens less and less. Sure it's a pain right now, but life could throw way worse obstacles in your life, and that's just life. Think of it this way, you can still get a job with herpes and live a completely normal life. The only reason people are afraid of it is because of a fear mongering campaign started by Burroughs Wellcome to sell their shit. before that, nobody really cared. It's just a cold sore on your genitals, so what's so scary about that. You could have way worse happen to you my friend.
Many hugs to you