canadianflyguy

Just went to the docs after a call and it's confirmed. I have hsv 1 genital. My heart is sinking. and just as I was starting to like a girl.

And the main reason I have my concerns (And I feel like I have an anonymity here), is because later on I found out that not even two days before I had this girl (In my defence, I used a condom and he didn't), a friend of mine slept with her also (so that girl as Bubbles from Trailer Park Boys would put it, she's greeeeasy). so that's where the anxiety and paranoia comes from.

Fair enough about many contracting HSV-1 oral. I did some searching and now I know at least 20 different friends in my small town that have contracted it. Makes me feel a little more easy about it.

Tingling in the genital area, and my balls are itchy. Then again I may just be paranoid.

I am starting to feel the symptoms for genital herpes now. it's going to suck.

The thing is, I've told a close friend and his girlfriend. These two got me a shit ton of clothes and a DVD player when they heard my mom's home burned down. as a matter of fact they took me to the docs for the initial tests. They told me that no matter what, they will be there for me through this. I would love to go out one day and just admit it later on when I've built up the courage as some of your stories are truly inspirational and make me feel less alone.

I guess it's like Todd Rundgren said in his song "Time Heals" "Time heals the wounds that no one can see" (I love music and quoting music, It has helped me through the hardest of times)

You just made me shed a tear of happiness, I haven't done that in a while.

The reason I think I got HSV 1 on my genitals is because at one point I remember getting a blowie from this girl I had a fling with.

I don't know yet, I just have this real bad feeling about it. Blood tests show I'm negative for it all (HIV and everything, THANK GOD!) but she took one look at the cold sore on my face and asked if I've had it before, and truth is I have, my dad used to screw a fair bit of strippers back in the day and I think I got it from him. But there is more than one cold sore this time.

I've survived alot in my life also, My mom said she'd have my back "No matter what" (i'm an only child) But i don't want to break it to her because she's already lost her home. All throughout my childhood from Pre-School to Grade 9 I was Bullied and beaten all the time. I've never been a "Tough Guy" but things did get better then once I stopped caring what people thought of me. But that fear is back again. Everyone currently loves me for being a "Caring, supportive (I've helped many a people through their life problems), and funny" (been told I don't know how many times to go into comedy). People have always cared for me cause I care for everyone else, but i'm not sure how long that's going to last now. I have worked so hard to bring myself to the positive light I once was, but i'm afraid that Herpes is going to take that all away (Friends, Family, the people I care for) and i'll be left with absolutely nothing. Most know me as a "strong person" (mentally, not physically) and I've always have had a kickass immune system cause my mom wanted me taking natural medicine instead of what big pharma wants you to take. and I have not got my flu shot since 2008 (I believe it does more damage than good). I've gotten past the part of denial and I accept that this has happened, and that's why I am here. I just need to know I'm not alone.

HSV1 oral by the way.

Anyone from Ontario, Canada in this thread? I could really use someone to talk to about this. I've really been getting the shit-end of the stick these past few months and I really need the support!

Earlier on in the month I drank a fair bit after my ex broke up with me and ended up sleeping with some girl that night I was drunk. Just recently I went into the doctors who told me that I for sure have oral herpes and I have a bad feeling that even though I wore a condom, I got genital herpes! I didn't know a cold sore could do this much damage to me! I don't even know what to do anymore and even though I was once happy, i'm starting to go into the depression that was once there before. I mean, i swear nothing good happens to me these days. First me and my mothers home burned down at the end of august, then my girlfriend broke up with me, and now this!? I know it's "just a skin condition" as my doctor put it, but I need some messages of hope from others that have had it for a while. I'm super depressed and i am already taking meds for my anger and depression issues and this is now another burden on me. Why do bad things always happen to good people? Is there any light at the end of the tunnel? I'm starting to lose hope on my life, and i'm only 19! Will I ever get a job with my condition? or will I be forever alone and miserable for the rest of my life!

Earlier on in the month I drank a fair bit after my ex broke up with me and ended up sleeping with some girl that night I was drunk. Just recently I went into the doctors who told me that I for sure have oral herpes and I have a bad feeling that even though I wore a condom, I got genital herpes! I didn't know a cold sore could do this much damage to me! I don't even know what to do anymore and even though I was once happy, i'm starting to go into the depression that was once there before. I mean, i swear nothing good happens to me these days. First me and my mothers home burned down at the end of august, then my girlfriend broke up with me, and now this!? I know it's "just a skin condition" as my doctor put it, but I need some messages of hope from others that have had it for a while. I'm super depressed and i am already taking meds for my anger and depression issues and this is now another burden on me. Why do bad things always happen to good people? Is there any light at the end of the tunnel? I'm starting to lose hope on my life, and i'm only 19! Will I ever get a job with my condition? or will I be forever alone and miserable for the rest of my life!