Hey Carly. Itook have felt the same thing no one is going to love me and the whole disgusted with yourself part itotslly relate to I've only had it since October but being on here has helped me so much during my OBs and regualr everyday basis. First of all you are not disgusting you are a beautiful woman who has a skin condition that SOOOOO many other people have in this world you arnt disgusting whatsoever :)). Remind yourself everyday that your beautiful that's what Idid. Your not going to be alone forever and you will find someone who loves you enough to not care you have it. My current bf gave it to me threw oral although he doesn't believe it he still loves me and supports me especially during an OB. My recent ex itold him ihave it and he told me he doesn't care what ihave that its not a big thing and he still loves me anyways. See its pro end that its not a huge thing. Your not in this alone you can get threw it and there's so many people on here who are supportive and could be a buddy to you to help you get threw your problemes. Ihope all works out for you :) if you ever wanna talk just inbox me :)