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Thank you. I wasn't sure if you meant it was easier to be alone because of h. I see that really it doesn't have much to do with it and is other reasons. That helps. I was starting to panic h made it too difficult. And you're right I think we all need to focus on ourselves and I'm happy you seem to be doing that so well :). Massive hugs to you. Xx

Thanks bambina3 when you say you've never been rejected, how many people have accepted it and still wanted to be with you?

But you've never been rejected? Why is it easier?

Thank you! I'm trying. I think I'm going to focus on myself for a while. Some people seem happy alone, I want to be in that place x

Actually, I did expect rejection. But I did have some hope. I also read a lot about the delivery. So I took a deep breath and I think I delivered it really well. I was proud of myself. I educated him in the risk and everything. But it was still a no. I don't know how some people have never been rejected.

About a month. But I wanted to get it out the way quickly because I expected rejection and I didn't want to wait until it would hurt even more. And it was getting a little physical I owed it to him. I know he wasn't rejecting me. But it makes me feel worse because it shows me that people could love me, but h is stopping it.

Thank you, for your kind words. I know there are far worse things and that's what I keep telling myself and keeps me going. I've known for about 2 months. So I am still struggling. Has your daughter had any good reactions yet? I just feel a bit like my freedom has been taken away and I want a family and I'm getting a bit older. I think I do have to become more independent. I hope I will meet someone. The disclosure was hard, because he was so nice about it. I almost wish it was harsher so I could think he was an idiot. I also find it so hard having to look the guy who did this to me in the face every week. I hope time will heal me and realise I'll be ok on my own. I can't tell my family, they would kill me, I've only told my best friend, who was very supportive, but just tells me someone would be mad to reject me because of that because I'm so lovely. But I don't think that's correct, I think most people would reject it. Thank you so much

Hi all, I have to say I'm very afraid writing this and about my life. I got herpes from a man I fell in love with. I thought I could trust him, but really he was just using me for fun. I was gutted. I now have to see him every week and all I do is cry. Anyway, the reason I am here. To be honest I get it, herpes is a little virus it really does not effect my life. I only know I have it because I'm super conscious about my body. I think if I wasn't me I would never have noticed the one tiny pimple. So ok it really doesn't affect my life. However, it's the stigma that kills me. I met a guy recently that I fell for straight away and I know he really liked me. So I had to tell him, I was brave and got it out without crying and like the small issue it is to me. Anyway, I'm heartbroken, he couldn't take the risk. I see a lot of people saying it's a wingman or if they really cared it wouldn't matter. But I'm struggling with that. This guy would probably have supported me through anything he's amazing. But an sti and the stigma no and I don't blame him. I would probably not have taken the risk either. I don't this he was not the right guy. I think we were perfect, but this has ruined it. If you don't have it, you can't begin to understand it's not a big deal. My life is never going to be the same again in terms of finding someone. And it's so hard these days anyway. I feel a little suicidal today.