so I was dating this guy for several months before finally having sex. After a few days I woke up with sores and thought maybe it was a rash. After it got worse I went to the doctor and the lesion swap came back as HSV2. I was devastated. I immediately contacted him and he said he would go get tested. He because very distant and didn't seem to sympathize with me or understand what I was going through.
A few days later he came back and told me he tested negative for HSV2. He took a blood test which was different than the test I took. I thought this was weird because I haven't had any other partners.
I went back to the doctor and asked her for a blood test. A few days later my test came back negative for HSV2. I apologized to him and was very confused. I felt like I had dodged a bullet. I began researching and read that it can take 6-8 weeks for antibodies to build up, so I decided I would wait a few weeks and get retested.
A few weeks later I had another blood test and this time it was positive for HSV2. I have been on a roller coaster. I have it, relief I don't, and back to I do. I told him after my second test and I haven't heard from him since. I know there is no way possible that I got it anywhere else other than him.
I am feeling alone, scared, miserable and dirty. The outbreaks don't bother as much as that constant voice inside my head reminding me that I am scarred. I can't help but look around when I am in social situations wondering who else might have it. I fear that I will never date again because I don't want to tell anyone I have this. I feel ashamed. I wish I could go back and take it all away but we all know I can't.
I am taking the suppression pills so I don't have outbreaks and I have started take Lysine BCAA, which suppresses it as well. The problem isn't having it. The problem is not wanting to spread it to anyone else so not dating.
I could use a friend to talk too. Male or female doesn't matter. It would just be nice to talk to someone who understands the stigma of Herpes and dating.