TaintedLove

I was diagnosed in April but I'm finally having a real outbreak. I only had sex twice since I found out. Last week was the 2nd time and it was with my ex the one that gave it to me. But anyway all of a sudden I have a bunch of sores and they hurt. I'm scared to have sex. Any suggestions on what to do and I wonder why am I just now having sores. My doctor said that I was atypical or something like that but now I have sores and it's really making it real for me now.

That's really good for you @mst because going through this alone is horrible. My friends and family know and of course the person that gave it to me. I was talking to a guy right before I found out and I told him 2 months later. We only talk and texted on the phone. When I told him he said shit happeneds you live and you learn. He sent me a picture of him a week after that and texted a little that say but I haven't heard from him since. I was so happy when I got the picture I thought maybe this is a sign and he might want to continue but I guess not. Oh well like he said you live and you learn. In all honesty if I found someone to accept me and understand the condition that I was attracted to I wouldn't feel so bad. I think right now it's about acceptance and love. I don't have painful sores or anything I think it's just the fact that I have it. I'm so happy that I can feel a little sad at times without being judged @HikingGirl I was talking to this guy that I met on a dating site for Hsv and he was just making me so mad because I'm sad. I have every right to feel sad. I know I'm not going to be this way forever but this is knew to me still. I have a lot to look forward too im a mother a nurse and I have a family that loves me so much. Thanks for the hugs @HikingGirl I really need them.

I've always been one of the strongest women in my family, but right now I feel so weak. I cry so much I can't help it. I'm extremely depressed. I just found out that my ex has a new girlfriend. Im pretty sure she'll be his next victim. I'm so heartbroken. I don't know what to do I was just with him. I really wish this pain and heartache go away. I wish the stigma wasn't so bad maybe I could cope better. People act like your dirty when it comes to this condition. I'm trying my hardest to love and accept my self but it's so hard. I blame myself so much. Thanks @HikingGirl for your words of encouragement. I know with time I'll feel better I'm just so hurt and upset right now.

Hi everyone I'm new here. I was diagnosed in April and I'm still very depressed. I feel like my life is over. I know it's not but I swear it sure feels like it. After we broke up I went into a deep depression for a couple months. After I finally got over the depression and felt whole again. I met someone I and went to the doctor to get a check up just to make sure everything was fine .It wasn't they told me I tested positive for herpes. My heart dropped. It's crazy because I would always bargain with God. I usually get tested every 6 months. I would always say please if I get anything incurable let it be herpes. I can live with that. Now that I have sometimes I feel like I can't live with it . I don't sleep around I was in a relationship I just meet the wrong ones . I'm so upset and ashamed I blame myself more than anything. I was really in love and I felt like this time was going to be different and we would be together forever. When I told my ex his he denied it and start acting like my best friend. He basically told me all the things that someone told him when he first found out. He never paniced he never mentioned anything about going to the doctor. I just wish he was truthful. Sometimes I really wish we we're still together. Going through this alone is horrible. I'm depressed on a daily basis. It's affecting my everyday life and I can tell my kids are noticing me being depressed. I feel like no one will love and accept me anymore. I live in a small judgmental city. So my ex just popped up out of the blue telling me he misses me and he's sorry for everything. I mentioned the herpes situation and he still denied it. I spent the night with him I even gave in and had sex with him and he preformed oral too. I'm sorry for being graphic but he's still denying it. I don't get him at all. He doesn't feel any type of sympathy or anything for me me. Two months later he still haven't mentioned going to the doctor yet. I'm just so afraid that I'm going to be alone forever. I'm so scared to disclose to someone I think that's why I want to be with him still. I need help and advice I swear.