Hello..I am looking for a H buddy..I have H for almost 2 years..and coming from a very conservative country (Philippines), I felt like my life ended when I was diagnosed. To top that, I found out the day I was pregnant..and my ex-bf decided he didn't want the baby and left us..I didn't tell him that I was sick because I was afraid..I'm a medical practitioner and I know that I could have gotten it from any of my exes. I lost my baby 10 weeks inside my tummy. I had a hard time accepting it..my doctor said there's a big chance that I lost my baby because I was sick..I am still having a hard time accepting that I have H..I know I have to forgive myself for havnig this but it is really hard..I haven't had a bf eversince because I am scared to be rejected..my 2nd outbreak was last December..it was very hard for me..I felt like something was wrong with me..I went here and I think I had an outbreak last June (I am not sure because I didn't see a doctor..but it was itchy so I assumed that it was an outbreak)..I just become so nervous and scared everytime I feel something down there..my mom knows that I have it and she is great in giving me advice because my estranged dad gave her something too..but I feel like I have to talk someone aside from her..to assure me that I am not a lesser person..because sometimes I feel just that..looking forward to talking to someone..preferrably a female buddy..I am 30 years old..btw, I am currently in NJ but will move back to Chicago in a few weeks.
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