Hi Hiking Girl - thank you so much! I read the Herpes handbook and found it super helpful. I have another appt with my doctor to pinpoint what type I have as my last test was not clear.
Now that my first OB has cleared, I feel like my head is in a better space....until I think about being sexual again. My BF has not been tested yet. He says he is going this week or next. But whenever I think about being intimate with him (which I am not going to until he gets tested!) I am scared of giving him - or any future lovers - the virus. The handbook says (and I read this in a few other posts here as well) that I can pass the virus on to someone else even when a condom is being used and I don't have an OB!! How on earth can I possibly, comfortably, have sex again with someone when all I think about it exposing them or infecting them!?