Pikachuhasherpes

Doesn't sound like a herpes lesion to me hun. Definitely sounds like an ingrown hair!!

This is very curious. My doctor won't even do the igG blood test for me. It's ridiculous..

Thank you all for your help. This should really be much easier. Btw while I have you all here, do you happen to notice that your other skin conditions or just skin in general seem to be so much more irritated now that you have this? Especially with the extreme heat or extreme cold?

This is super important guys...

This shows up on Google for anyone who searches my username. I want it deleted because I thought this was a more private thing. Seriously it shouldn't be this difficult to delete.

I told him if I knew what kind of a man he would turn into I wouldn't have tried so hard to protect him. I mean he keeps saying he doesn't care and that he wants to have sex with me but I can't risk it because it I pass it on I'll never hear the end of it. And he's suicidal as well but it's like join the fucking club. If I left especially if I passed the virus on, I would have to live with that guilt forever.

@beautyintheugly22 I actually had to stop taking the antivirals because they put me in the hospital. It was quite serious. I should be taking lysine as I have an outbreak right now but they for some reason rot my stomach pretty badly. I am taking probiotics for vaginal health right now but i also still using what's left of the prunella extract and then just switching to teatree on a cotton pad due to financial difficulties. I also have jaw surgery next month so I'm scared shtless about that but also about how far back herpes wise that will send me. I know that's the last thing I should be thinking about but it just adds to the pile. I'm still getting to know this virus but having an outbreak after going almost a month without one is so disappointing. It's like my skin down there feels much thinner and way more painful and sensitive. I got giant lesions from a tampon so needless to say I'll never use them again. I haven't had sex with my boyfriend in almost two months and we've had serious issues lately. I don't want to air out my dirty laundry here but in an argument with him when he was being such an asshole and trying to break up with me for the third time in 4 months, he pretended to be on the phone with his Mom telling her to get him out of the house but apparently made that up; and in that mix up shortly afterwards he threatened to tell his entire pretentious family, even though I hadn't passed this virus on NOR was I intending to hense the lack of sex, that I have herpes. Something that isn't their business by ANY means, and since then I question what the fuck I'm even doing. I know he didn't mean to do or say what he did and he is trying to make it up to me but... I don't see this magically getting better. It was the single most disgusting thing anyone has ever said to me.. and at any point he could snap again. I can't trust he won't and I'm about to have jaw surgery and have to rely on this man to take care of me so I'm basically freaking out. Is this not emotional abuse? I hate to have to ask here but I don't know what else to do...

I use Ultimate Flora vs for women 50 billion capsules. It's a godsend. Expensive but worth it. I promise you that.

I too feel like one of those people.. And while I haven't had sex since my last outbreak, I have faith. My obs have died down quite a bit since changing my diet to a mostly vegetarian vegan diet.. although I do mess it up a lot lately. My advice to everyone so far is in a comment on another thread. "Get vagisil wipes for the itch. Immediately. These have helped me tremendously. And a probiotics that specializes in vaginal health. It'll probably benefit a penis as well :p shit has calmed down so much since doing this and I haven't had an outbreak when they were constant.. And this is coming from somebody who has multiple autoimmune disorders. Still too afraid to have sex but I'm working on that part. :) I hope this helped." I also use a mix of prunella vulgaris and watered down tea tree oil twice a day on a cotton pad. Honestly, though, I think what's helped me is the moment I decided to stop examining myself constantly with a mirror and to just accept what I can't change. I know it's easier said than done, but as soon as I stopped constantly obsessing over it is when thing finally calmed down. I take precautions whenever necessary and whenever I feel sketchy i do this routine. Not looking forward to my next outbreak but i won't let this define me anymore. Thank God I grew up with oral hsv1 because I have obviously developed some antibodies to the virus itself. I hope this can be of some inspiration. :] And I know I've said this in a couple other boards but I want to make sure this reaches as many as possible. Thank you all for your help. :)

I too feel like one of those people.. And while I haven't had sex since my last outbreak, I have faith. My obs have died down quite a bit since changing my diet to a mostly vegetarian vegan diet.. although I do mess it up a lot lately. My advice to everyone so far is in a comment on another thread. "Get vagisil wipes for the itch. Immediately. These have helped me tremendously. And a probiotics that specializes in vaginal health. It'll probably benefit a penis as well :p shit has calmed down so much since doing this and I haven't had an outbreak when they were constant.. And this is coming from somebody who has multiple autoimmune disorders. Still too afraid to have sex but I'm working on that part. :) I hope this helped." I also use a mix of prunella vulgaris and watered down tea tree oil twice a day on a cotton pad. Honestly, though, I think what's helped me is the moment I decided to stop examining myself constantly with a mirror and to just accept what I can't change. I know it's easier said than done, but as soon as I stopped constantly obsessing over it is when thing finally calmed down. I take precautions whenever necessary and whenever I feel sketchy i do this routine. Not looking forward to my next outbreak but i won't let this define me anymore. Thank God I grew up with oral hsv1 because I have obviously developed some antibodies to the virus itself. I hope this can be of some inspiration. :] And I know you may all see this post in several different boards but I just want it to reach as many as possible. And thank you all for your tremendous help.

I too feel like one of those people.. And while I haven't had sex since my last outbreak, I have faith. My obs have died down quite a bit since changing my diet to a mostly vegetarian vegan diet.. although I do mess it up a lot lately. My advice to everyone so far is in a comment on another thread. "Get vagisil wipes for the itch. Immediately. These have helped me tremendously. And a probiotics that specializes in vaginal health. It'll probably benefit a penis as well :p shit has calmed down so much since doing this and I haven't had an outbreak when they were constant.. And this is coming from somebody who has multiple autoimmune disorders. Still too afraid to have sex but I'm working on that part. :) I hope this helped." I also use a mix of prunella vulgaris and watered down tea tree oil twice a day on a cotton pad. Honestly, though, I think what's helped me is the moment I decided to stop examining myself constantly with a mirror and to just accept what I can't change. I know it's easier said than done, but as soon as I stopped constantly obsessing over it is when thing finally calmed down. I take precautions whenever necessary and whenever I feel sketchy i do this routine. Not looking forward to my next outbreak but i won't let this define me anymore. Thank God I grew up with oral hsv1 because I have obviously developed some antibodies to the virus itself. I hope this can be of some inspiration. :]

Get vagisil wipes for the itch. Immediately. These have helped me tremendously. And a probiotics that specializes in vaginal health. It'll probably benefit a penis as well :p shit has calmed down so much since doing this and I haven't had an outbreak when they were constant.. And this is coming from somebody who has multiple autoimmune disorders. Still too afraid to have sex but I'm working on that part. :) I hope this helped

I've tried every kind of antiviral but they all drain the life out of me, not to mention being on disability doesn't entirely cover the insane price of the medication and it's expensive as you all know. The only thing that works for my anxiety are benzos but thanks to people abusing them i can't even get then prescribed at all. I do use condoms but i haven't had much of a break between outbreaks for sexual encounters to be a reality with him. Not to mention condoms hurt like hell. This is all shit I've been told before, and while I appreciate somebody responding instead of just reading it and letting it fall down the list, I asked for all natural ways to fix this.. and what's worked for them, and the side effects. All I wanted to do was have a conversation about all of this and I can't even get one going on a website with thousands of people who probably do know how to help. It just sucks, man.. because autoimmune conditions are always going to get in my way now where as before they were at least somewhat manageable. My last attempt is therapy but I have serious jaw surgery on March 5th and won't be able to even speak. Definitely can't swallow an antiviral then but i can mix all natural supplements in warm water and squirt it into my mouth with one of those giant plastic syringes. It seems like everything is hitting the fan in my life all at once. Seems I have to make very big decisions soon. I'm okay with that so long as they're the right ones. I was approved for financial compensation after witnessing my best friends murder that led me down the path of extreme crippling depression and they wanted me to file another claim for the sexual assault that led me down the path to herpes, but I couldn't make it stick because the cops here are bullshit and basically made me feel like I was making it up. It would be more humility than j ever needed. I get it... we all make risky decisions and we all make mistakes but my diagnosis wasn't supposed to happen. My choice to stay or leave wasn't a choice at all. It was taken from me. It's not as simple as taking an anxiety med because if it were i wouldn't be on the forums at all complaining or begging for help because I'm at this point entirely suicidal. That's why it hurts when I'm told to do something that I already knew about because it's page one in the diagnosis manual of herpes and using condoms is a no brainer anyway, but because it wasn't even remotely what I asked which makes me feel so unimportant that it wasn't even read. So I'll do my own research and probably won't be posting anymore.. to save myself more humility down the road. And anyone who thinks I'm too sensitive or anything else negative I welcome to take a walk in my shoes for just one day.. because I can just barely do it and I've been doing it my whole life. I'm exhausted from life and the tremendous loss I've suffered.. I just want to sleep and never wake up.

I guess I'll just fend for myself as usual. Can barely ever get a response as it is. I might as well delete my account at this rate.

I quit taking the strong dose my doctor told me to go on of 1.6g per day because it was actually making me extremely ill and fragile/weak. It nearly sucked the life out of me. Now the itching has come back and I don't know if my skin is raised and just looks like a mild outbreak because of the trauma, or if it is a mild one. I'm now on 3000mg daily of lysine which seems like a lot but I hope it works, and on probiotics that to be honest I don't feel are working at all. I need an all natural treatment but I don't want to waste my money on something that simply won't work or isn't strong enough without severely compromising my life entirely. I've heard of cats claw and I also haven't tried olive leaf extract because I'm afraid that it'll make my condition worse before it makes it better.. not to mention I am on disability and have limited funds. My cat almost died Wednesday night and I had to pay roughly $1000 to save his life and that took what little emotional energy I had left after this diagnosis away. I want to be physical with my beautiful boyfriend and I don't want something as silly as having auto immunity stand in the way forever. So any all natural products would be great that don't trigger asthma or bad liver activity.. oh and that are heart safe.. but I also have to ask.. Has anybody else had sleep paralysis from high doses of antivirals? I did and that was quite the experience. Not to mention I had major panic attacks for the last two nights and couldn't fall asleep. It's been hell and I just want some kind of relief. I don't have the luxury of waiting 7 to 10 days after an outbreak before engaging in sex because I'm lucky I have that long before another comes on. I am really suffering and so is my relationship. I cry literally every single day.. and I just want it all to stop or calm down without poisoning myself.. I really do. I even let the hair grow out but I feel like it's making it worse but shaving also does.. It's like no matter what I do it's never good enough for this or anything else in my life..

I totally feel your pain. I was also on valacyclovir 500mg and honestly it didn't do shit for me. If you have any autoimmune disorders it makes the virus so much more difficult to live with. Perhaps that is a part of it. My doctor has me on 1.6g of acyclovir because that's how strong it needs to be for the dosing to work to suppress it but it's rotting out my stomach and dehydrating me so badly that I just want to cry. I felt my blood pressure skyrocket Wednesday night when my cat almost lost his life and I had to pay $1k to save it and obviously my blood pressure wasn't going to stay down when that did happen but at the same time, I thought I needed medical help. I went vegan for a week before running out of money and having to switch over and it didn't really satisfy my appetite but it did make my skin and overall health better. Perhaps I just didn't give it enough of a chance. I do know that a lot of stress triggers symptoms or a full on outbreak because it's happened to me but the virus triggers stress so it's a never-ending vicious fucking cycle.. So I really do know how you feel.. because I have a heart condition and celiac & endometriosis to name a few besides panic disorder that is so much worse on this medication, and I am honestly losing my motivation to eat or drink water or do anything but sleep.. and I can't because I have to nurse my cat back from near death. I tried to tell my boyfriend I'm at this point exhausted from life and that all I want to do is go to sleep and never wake up and he tells me he can't help me. It's like wow thanks a lot man.. I've been tempted to take as many pills as I can find and just end it all because staying here to benefit other people when I'm suffering just doesn't seem fair to me at all.. but I keep fighting to stay alive and I'm running out of reasons to stay. I was broken before this virus.... and my boyfriend and I barely sleep together because I don't ever want him to suffer the way that I am because for some people it isn't just a fucking skin condition but I feel the strain on our relationship from it all. I wake up and just want to go back to sleep.. or drink or cry my eyes out. I feel your pain.. and I wish I could help you. I really do.. because nobody deserves this..

What's even better is I'm having jaw surgery March 5th and don't have any idea how this will all affect me..

Wow okay. So I tried to adjust my dose because they're rotting my stomach and hurting my spine for some reason and I got hardcore sleep paralysis all damn morning!! I just can't take this shit anymore! I need something strong enough until my body gets used to the virus but I just had to pay over a grand to save my cats life Wednesday night from a urinary blockage!! I feel like being vegan made a huge difference but I ran out of money and had to go back to dairy because it's all we had. I'm losing my fucking mind here. I am so tired of this shit controlling my life. The acyclovir is also triggering my endometriosis BAD. I don't know what the hell to do anymore. I don't even have the luxury or time to sit here worrying about this stupid virus when I'm nursing my poor sick kitty back to health and yet it's still in the back of my mind festering like a moldy scab. Somebody who thinks they can help please do instead of basically complaining that I'm asking questions!!!!!

@beautyintheugly22 may i ask if you stopped taking Valtrex to take the lysine? I have had constant outbreaks since my diagnosis but each one keeps getting smaller and smaller. Doc has me on 1.6g of acyclovir everyday but that's absolutely insane. The lysine seemed to be working with a mix of tea tree oil and prunella vulgaris extract tincture down below if I felt ANY symptoms but there was always one damn lesion there even if the outbreak seemed clear! Thought perhaps I was a scar till I took all 1600mg of my meds yesterday and woke up to see everything is completely clear. I have a heart condition and many autoimmune disorders so my situation is a bit different but I'm so terrified of the side effects of these antivirals. I feel them right now and dehydration is definitely one I'm not fond of... especially with Sjrogrens Syndrome. Please let me know:) I want to do this the natural way but I am running out of ideas. I may try 800mg broken in half twice a day.. much better than 1.6g but it may not be enough. Guess it's all about trial and error.

Well I took both doses post outbreak and the area looks as clear now as it did before I ever got diagnosed.. so now I'm scared to not take this much antiviral.. because while it's a relief to have the area clear and maybe God forbid even shave now, I am still terrified of the side effects. Is anybody else on 1.6g of medication for this? If I drop down to 1g per day what will happen to me? I didn't ever want to be on pharmaceuticals for months but the all natural shit just doesn't entirely work for me. There's always one damn lesion constantly and no real proof any of these meds work. For all I know this med isn't working. The valacyclovir sure as hell didn't. I just wanted relief but not at the cost of my life or sanity.. not that the thought of leaving it to fate isn't absolutely driving me insane either!!!! He also said valacyclovir and acyclovir are literally the same thing and the pharmaceutical companies lie to make us spend money on meds that aren't covered. He also went on to say there's been no such proof of anybody becoming acyclovir resistant. I don't know what to think.

I hope somebody gets back to me..

What i mean by organs I've got left is that they're the only good ones left since I have a LOTTTT of medical issues. Ha!

I've tried valacyclovir and tried acyclovir before but both times I was having an outbreak. In between both outbreaks however, I was taking valacyclovir 500mg daily as suppressive therapy. It didn't work. I tend to get tachycardia on acyclovir and bad anxiety so I'm just not sure that 800mg daily is a good idea but my doctor is convinced that the dose needs to be stronger for me because of my autoimune disorders; 800mg in the morning and 800mg at night unless I have a couple drinks that night. Does this seem to be way too much medication to anybody else? I am so terrified of the side effects and was on the all natural stuff like lysine, prunella vulgaris extract tincture topically with tea tree oil and that seemed to calm things down. My outbreaks have been many but less severe each time and this last one was quite mild for my third outbreak ever. I'm afraid that this medication will give me more issues than I thought and he even said for me not to waste my money on vitamins that have no proof of them working and not to restrict my diet too much so that I can still have meat and dairy.. just stuff that doesn't come in cans and to try and get everything fresh. What is your take? I sincerely need advice about this. I appreciate any response. 800mg in the morning and 800mg at night...... 1.6g of meds sketches me right out but I'm so tired of having constant outbreaks and barely being able to think about literally anything else. It's really messed up my quality of life.. and the doctor seemed nice enough. He is an infectious disease doctor and just wanted to save me some money because acyclovir is covered. I'm on iron from low iron and probiotics but I don't know what to do with all of my lysine.. I don't want long term side effects that ruin what organs I've got left. :( the outbreaks fuck up my quality of life but so does the medication. It's hard to tell which is worse.. and if I go down to 400mg twice a day and get an outbreak what will really break is my heart. :( please help..

I will definitely look into that. Thank You!!! :)

I've been on 1000mg daily of these lysine supplements and have been eating more garlic plus I take 50 billion probiotics that are specifically geared towards vaginal health and also help your stomach and urinary tract a lot as well, which is great because I guess the virus lives at the base of your spine and in the urinary tract? That's what I read I think. But yeah I got this prunella vulgaris extract tincture and I put the dropper twice on a cotton pad and then dip a qtip in my tea tree oil and take the cotton pad and dab it everywhere down there. Sometimes I even keep it between my legs as long as I can stand it. This is my third outbreak and considering I am severely stressed out, have been drinking wine everyday (outbreak happened two days ago but the predom symptoms bringing out my fibro was sheer hell let me tell you), and at times actually forget to take one of the supplements plus me having a ton of autoimmune disorders, I only got 3 lesions this time. One is located on the outer lip which is weird because it's never been there before. Just a little random blister! I stopped shaving down there but I'm intrigued by the laser hair removal for there. I did officially go vegan less than a week ago right before I got this outbreak so I have no idea if that's why it's much less severe but I went vegan for heath reasons. Thought it would be a total drag but actually it's pretty amazing. Just wanted to share my tips because I felt they may help somebody and if anybody has any other advice I would love to hear it. I've been experiencing REALLY bad anxiety so anything that can help that would be amazing.