I don't feel worthy....

[Lighthouse11]

I found out almost 5 months ago after my son was born that I have HSV2. I know that I got it from his father though he fully denies it. We are no longer together. & I don't even feel worthy of being with anyone. I feel "tainted" . I feel like any man is just going to think I'm disgusting. I honestly don't even feel worthy of sex. I don't feel sexy... I feel like if I ever do have sex again I won't even be able to enjoy it cuz I'll just be thinking about it. If any guy pursues me in the future.. I think I'll just push them away.. This is so hard for me to overcome... I see so many people saying a loved one accepted them.. but I'm just so depressed I don't know how anyone will accept me with this

[HikingGirl]

Hi, @Lighthouse11, and welcome. At five months post-diagnosis, I felt much the same way you do. It is a very dark place to be. :-( Have you considered seeing a therapist? Herpes tends to pour salt on our existing struggles, and I found it really helpful to talk to a therapist to help me move past the feelings of unworthiness. I didn't even feel worthy to talk to strangers!! Today I see everything with a completely different perspective...a much brighter one. I wish the same thing for you and everyone who is struggling right now. {hugs}

[Sweetsoulxo]

I know exactly how you feel...

 

Not to toot my own horn but I was very confident before this. I am an attractive female, relatively intelligent and successful. I never had any problem finding men to date me and now THIS. I have never had an std before this. :(