I am a very outgoing and active person. I thrive around people. I got DX'ed 5 days ago. I have had the "herp fever" as I like to call it for 7 days. The systemic first infection symptoms. I feel awful physically. the anti vials make me feel sick. Worse then my body is my heart. I feel sick at heart. I have no idea who I am anymore. I was so careful always. I always used condoms and asked about histories. I was lied to and I feel ruined. I don't feel like myself anymore, I'm just a walking disease as my body is slowly having this virus infect every part of me. The migraine I have had for 7 days, and all the flu like symptoms I just have wait out while I take meds that make me nauseous, dizzy, and foggy. The fatigue is like a wet hot blanket I carry with me. I'm too tired, depressed, and empty to even talk to people or leave my apartment. I can't cry anymore because I think I emptied on that too. I'm just a hollow shell of a person.
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