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That was incredibly kind @yadira....thank you so much for answering my questions. I know my problem is that I bae not fully accepted this. And I'm working on it...it's hard but with people like you....dancer and daisies.....i know I'll be able to make it through....thank you...

Maaan....i can't wait to get to this point......i think about it all the time....everyday....my BF wants to stop using condoms and I'm terrified. Everytime a few hours pass and I don't hear from him I think the next phone call will be...baby I have it....and it scares the hell out of me. ...it may sound incredibly personal to ask but has your boyfriend gotten the virus now that you aren't using condoms....i have been having more outbreaks than ever probably because I stress about having outbreaks....idk this is hard....but I'm glad there is hope. Thank you.

Having more out breaks and I'm clueless as to why...i feel like my stress level is ordinary....i eat pretty well....i sleep the same as I always have and I'm still having outbreaks that have seemed to increase in number and it's depressing at this point. How can I have more outbreaks on suppressive therapy than I did before therapy?!!

I feel like before I was diagnosed....i never had an OB....and now that I know...it's every month...I take 500 MG of valcylovir once daily....is that enough...i just upped my dosage of lysine to 1000mg daily. I just need a break from OBs. It's wearing on me.....

I'm terrified of infecting my H- partner....this is great information to know. IM finding it increasingly stressing to think about passing it on and was wondering if anybody had gotten it whIle using a condom....my H- partner wants to stop using condoms...

I had my first OB a year ago....then nothing....and then now seems like once a month

I have more questions about suppressive therapy.? Does anyone still experience frequent OB while on therapy?

No....I had my first OB after I had been celibate 6 months. The last partner claims negative status and the 2 year relationship claims negative status as well.... A damn bunch of times tith my ex bf....3times with the last partner No with the BF yes with the rebound No atv with either

Love ya back daisies!!!

I sooooo appreciate everyone but special thanks to dancer and daisies.......man...you guys were the perfect balance of strength and support.....firmness and caring....thank you so much. We are now planning a trip which I was hesitant to initiate planning before I told him, but he had made all the arrangements and now we are jet setting! Freedom!

First, I want to thank all you guys for your support . I would have never been able to make it through without you guys. You won't ever imagine how much you guys support has mattered to me. So....I did it...I told him...I held his hand....took a lot of deep breaths....and I told him. He closed his eyes...he shed a few tears...and told me...he loves me. He said he needed a minute and I tried to get up. He said stay right here. We talked about what he knew about it....the stats....medication....transmission. He said he loves me and we met for a reason and he is happy and he wants to be with me. Then...we I said we can make love when he is ready...then we made love and now I have a new boyfriend!!!

Yaaaaaay so proud!!!!

I know how you feel daisies.... I feel like that too sometimes but i wouldn't ever want to change...I'm learning to love myself (somedays) loving yourself means protections your heart just a little more diligently....but don't shut off....I think people like you who love so unconditionally keep just enough love in our world for it to keep turning (big hugs)

I know how you feel daisies.... I feel like that too sometimes but i wouldn't ever want to change...I'm learning to love myself (somedays) loving yourself means protections your heart just a little more diligently....but don't shut off....I think people like you who love so unconditionally keep just enough love in our world for it to keep turning (big hugs)

He keeps asking me...what's wrong with me? I seem to perfect. ....it's making me crazy

Thank you so much....I love this place....thank you so much for all your great work

:-) lol

I don't know much about suppressive therapy. I've only had 2 obs in 2 yrs and they were very mild. I'm considering starting antiviral a to protect my partner. But I have a few questions.... What's a typical regimen for suppressive therapy? When do you consider the suppressive therapy active enough to protect your partner after starting therapy? Side effects of long term use?

I couldn't do it. I felt unprepared. But I got my test results on paper today to help me explain negative skin but positive blood. And I have to print the sheets off and rehearse my speech. But I did tell my sister last week. That was really hard but easy at the same time, she is the first person that I told besides my suspected giver...but this weekend. I'll do it for sure.

So I think I'm going to do it tomorrow.

Thank you @ white daisies!!! I'm gonna need some serious support!

@WSCDancer2010 Dancer! Just the person I was hoping to hear from...I read nearly all your responses to questions and was secretly hoping you would respond with advice. I have H2 and I'm scared....I was diagnosed shortly after meeting this person and fear I haven't had time to process it..let alone feel any sense of strength that I will need to disclose to him.

(Deep sigh) So I met the most amazing guy I've ever encountered in all my life and we have been seeing each other for about 3 months. This will be my first disclosure ever and I don't know what to say, how to say it, when to say it, where to say it etc. I don't want to lose him. Some days Im afraid I waited too long....other days I'm afraid I didn't wait long enough. My biggest fear is that if my first disclosure goes badly that it will shape the way I look at being h+. I'm so afraid. We talk about being open and honest with one another and I have this thing that I haven't told him...what do I say?