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Bambina 3 I've basically been single almost 2 years after being tied up for roughly 13 yrs. as I mentioned in my other discussion" I know what I deserve damn it!!!" I did wait a month, when I could tell we were attracted to one another, I disclosed. Some people can't handle it, I can't blame them if they don't want to risk... It still hurts tho. There is s man who wants to introduce me to some men at his work. I told him no thanx. I cannot deal with more rejection

Seattle H group has daily or evening events, not whole weekends. Yes people meet for drinks, dinner, brunch, at a library...this will be the first event I have gone too. They r usually an hr. South of where I live but this sun. It's in my area. I'll see how it goes.

I posted a huge paragraph under "I know what I deserve damn it!!!!" That is my heroes story since 1987. I just joined here yesturday so no he rejected me before I saw the fact sheet. Wow!!! Thank u for all ur input:)! I'm going to a Seattle H group function this sun and made an appoint ment to see a psychiatrist on mon.

I've always! Brought that up. I have taken daily therapy and suggested condoms. This last man said he didn't want to take the risk at this later stage in his life. Thank u for ur support;) I guess meeting a fit healthy Jewish 50 something man may be expecting too much.

Ok... I have had nothing but rejection!! I want a husband, not a boyfriend. I have made some unhealthy choices re. Men in my life but my standards have been catapulted so far into the universe of what I am worthy of that.... My last rejection I was worthy of him. Finding a man whom is age appropriate, same religious beliefs as l, who's fit and active. That reallllly narrows the field of opportunities. I'm 54.

This is a quote from someone. If I'm rejected because I have this so called "skin condition", and I wanted that person, and he didn't want me due to this "skin condition",.... What next? What am I to think? I know I'm not my herpes! I never even think about it unless someone is making it obvious that they're attracted to me. Then I think.... If they only knew I could give them a dose of something that they'd remember me for the rest of their lives! I know that's not positive, but it is the truth . It's hard enough meeting someone at all let alone someone who I deem myself worthy of. I am unable to get help or feedback from anyone about being rejected time and time again. Why is that?

I agree with all of the above:) I do however struggle with something in the free downloadable book. It makes lite of being rejected. I know there's really nothing you can do about the other persons way of handling this, but it still hurts. I met a man, he has a girlfriend but he wants to introduce me to some men at his work. He felt I have so much to offer. I have no problem in disclosing my disease... And let's face the truth now, it is a disease as well as being more than JUST a skin condition. It can also give deep psiatic nerve pain. I told him no thanks.On the PS website the men I felt may make promising relationship partners were merely looking for sex. The whole reason I joined this site and purchase the 4 books, was my daughter sent me the article from NPR. I'm depressed, in rage over my recent rejection from a great quality man. He was nice about it, but the outcome is the same. I cannot meet men and continue to over and over and over again be rejected. I'm also told by my friends and family that I'm overreacting, I'll find someone, they were jerks for rejecting you or that I don't need companionship. Of course none of them have herpes, and most are happily in relationships. I do not disclose in a negative way. I usually tell men I have herpes and then we talk about it. I know all the statistics and can answer questions they may have. I've been told I'm admirable for telling and that it must be hard. It still hurts.

I'm an extremely fit and healthy 54 yr. old divorced 3 times women. I gave hsv2 to my first husband and we didn't find out till our daughter was 6 months old. He had an outbreak, dr said he probably got it from me and I didn't know I had it. Sure enough I get tested, I have it, I'm A symptomatic. I just spread the shit around w out having outbreaks. Nice huh? Long story short. I told 2 men that I dated after my divorce. They got it. This was before repressive therapy,WICH IS NOT 100%, as well as condom use is NOT 100%. My next 2 marriages, we had sex 5 times in 6 yrs. He said if he ever got it he'd divorce me. The 3 rd husband and I never had penetration. BOTH men were losers. They were with me because I supported them monitarilly . They viewed no sex as an excellent trade off for being able to sit on their ass. BTW both looked fat, like shit, not active, one had a heart attach, the other gout snd stroke, both w high blood pressure. I felt lucky to have someone and a lot of the times the companionship was nice:) I went on PS dating site for people w STDs. The people that lived close, were active whom I deemed attractive BOTH were merely looking for sex from me. They're profiles said otherwise. If a man tells me I'm sexy or hot... That's DEFINATELY a red flag. It means they won't look past my physicality to see ME. I went on a different site for fit people. I do have men look at me, approach me all the time... HOWEVER, most that do are unfit, don't care for themselves. They think that because they have money or a boat, motorcycle etc... That they can entice me that way...anyway, I met a man who was 58 Jewish, retired military, wall climber, fitness and self defense instructor, tri athelete, he knew what a Clean & Jerk & Snatch was without thinking they were sexual terms due to ignorance. He rejected me. Nicely of course, but the outcome is the same. I KNOW what I WANT & WHAT I DESERVE. I'm terrified I'll be a spinster the rest of my life due to my age, finding a Jewish fit man my age who will want me. I will NO LONGER just settle. I purchased the 4 books from the course on this website. I'm going to Israel for 2 weeks this summer to volunteer for the IDF(Israel defense force ) so saving money for that. I want to use the tools of this course, as well as the teachings of the Torah to help myself.... Kill the rage & depression I have over this. I roller skate outside and in, am interested in derby style skating, went to a derby camp last summer, love wall climbing, cross fit type training, took a shooting class, want to learn the skills much more in all these. I love to garden, smoke meat, bake bread, walk my dog, I give money to causes..... Thanks for reading, I just signed up today, will show support for others on this site as well:) BTW I don't care who knows I have this. I tell random people and my family all the time. If they were to write me off as a human being for that..oh well.. They're not worth my time. I like to think that by my disclosing my past drinking problem and this, that I could be helpful and supportive to others:)