This particular thread has been really helpful to me. I was diagnosed just about a month ago and have been intimately acquainted for ten years with the person who gave it to me. I was obsessed, I mean OBSESSED, with getting him to take responsibility for weeks after I was diagnosed, but he refuses. We texted and talked constantly, during which time he went back and forth between "I'm sorry" and "it wasn't me." Then he just stopped talking. Then i obsessed with "how could he treat me this way after everything we had together?" I continued to obsess and txt and call him for days. And then I realized he will never give me the conversation I want, and even if he did, it won't change the fact that I have herpes. And now im starting to realize and grieve over the truth of what the relationship meant to him even though i loved him to my soul. I got on this support forum a week or so ago, and it has been amazingly helpful in beginning a healing journey for me. At night, when I'm beating myself up with the "what ifs" and "whys" I just login and start reading and writing. In many ways, everyone here has been my accepting friend, therapist, caregiver. I've been in therapy and am so grateful I also have an amazing doctor who is compassionate, knowledgeable, and allows me to cry on her table over the last few weeks since my OB, blood tests, and positive diagnosis. I have a best friend whom I told and who has been my angel. Keep talking. Keep feeling the emotions. We're all on the same ride, my friend. It can change me for the better- I believe that thanks to the people here in this forum. The only way to get through it is to keep pushing THROUGH it. Sending all of you positive thoughts for a restful night and a beautiful day tomorrow!