Well I was just recently diagnosed with ghsv1. I had my first OB, 3 days after having sex with an ex boyfriend. I had not been sexually active for a few years so when I seen him again a few weeks ago, I decided i would feel better doing so with someone familiar. A few days later, I was in alot of pain and it was only getting worse. I couldn't take it and went to see the doctor. She took tests and told me that she was almost sure it was Herpes. I cried for days. I feel ashamed, guilty, embarrassed, nasty, afraid, scared, unlovable, angry sad and lonely. And I felt I truly could only blame myself for being so stupid. I feel like there is a big possibility I might end up alone forever, and I won't have anymore children or if I do end up with someone, then my sex life will never be the same, cause I will always be worried about possibly giving it to my partner. Since then I have been researching anything and everything about herpes. I have been so extremely afraid of the possibility of somehow spreading this to my young children as well, taking extra percautions since. I got the results from my test back a few days ago. I feel a bit better than I did at first, but I still feel really worried and very self conscious. I let my ex boyfriend know, even tho he has never had an OB. He says he is gonna go get checked but hasn't really talked to me much since I've let him know.
Anyways, I appreciate any feedback or support, or information.