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@kaybee I feel the same way...I want to know if I can have my children (If I have any) naturally or will I have to have a c section

You reiterated how I've been feeling...I loved this

I'm trying to link something up. In an earlier post I stated I didn't have any symptoms and that I never had the agonizing first herpes outbreak everyone else has been saying they had. But I've noticed something, my lymph nodes would swell and I've been getting sore throats more often than usual, is it possible this is just a part of my body reacting to the herpes? I also tested for HIV and that came back negative so it's not that.

Hi guys and girls!! Im a 20 yr old black female, live in St. Louis, MO and I would love to have someone to be able to talk to and listen to. I just found out about 3 weeks ago and I think I'm doing better than expected thanks to this forum. I'm big on cafés and lunch dates if you are in my city but im very much open to net and phone buddies. Again I'm looking for a buddy who can be my uplifting guide as much as I can be there's. feel free to inbox me :) :) :)

*Wipes forehead* thanks Adrial I'm going to look at those links now.

Hi Paige. My story is quite like yours ( newly diagnosed about 3 weeks ago, 20yrs old & college student) but I don't have the broken promise part. It's actually good you told your best friend, she may not know exactly how you feel but you were able to vent to her ( my sister is the only one who knows about me and she found out stumbling across my meds). This gift we have been given will make you feel completely alone bur this awesome forum will make you realize is what we have is a skin condition that we have to be careful with when it decides to show itself (also sometimes when it doesn't but you will learn more about viral shedding when you do more research). Because mine is still fresh I have my days where I break down and cry because I think of all the potential things I feel like I've been robbed of. I noticed on here that people who have had it for years still have their break downs also but that what goes with this. We have to stay strong though Paige. Not only do we have the rest of our lives ahead of us, but this makes us more conscious of who we give our minds and bodies too. We are same person we were before we got the H and we will be the same person now and forever because the H does not define who we are. If you want you can inbox me whenever you want because again our stories are much like each others and I could use someone other than my sis to talk too being that she doesn't have the H. We can be each others outlet and vent to each other. We are bigger than the H. This skin condition only makes up a tiny percentage of all the great things we have to offer this world. STAY STRONG PAIGE. We are in this together and I'm so glad you found this forum like I did. You will learn a lot here. >:D< :)

No this is not a story of sexual abuse/incest. I found out I have herpes about 3 weeks ago. My symptoms were a discharge that would not go away and a severe itch that lasted about two days that was near my vag opening/entrance. My mother on the other hand said she had a discharge also (neither had a smell). My nurse practitioner said it was just a lot of bacteria not disease related. Why I'm asking did I accidentally transmit herpes: today she has a gyno appt and she just said she has some irritated pus bumps around her vag area and her rectum is itching. (I never got irritated pus bumps but my rectum itched really bad at times, I just thought i should have washed that area a little harder). I must admit I'm not sure how long I've had herpes before being diagnosed but once I got the discharge I did make sure I cleaned the toilet seat and kept my towel away so no one would get what I thought I had. Is it possible that I may have given my mother herpes thru the toilet seat being I don't know how long I've had it? (She doesn't even know I have it, I'm too ashamed to tell her). I need answers quick because I don't want to feel responsible for passing herpes on to her or anyone else who've used our bathroom :( :(

Brenda I love your response and totally agree that you should get to know him and the then you will be able to tell him. I'm dating a new guy and I haven't disclosed yet but I will have to eventually especially if the relationship moves into the next phase. So I know how it feels to want to keep what we have to ourselves but we have to be responsible for ourselves and others. Sending uplifting vibes your way :)

Me too. I cried a little Lastnight because I felt like I've been robbed of experiencing a lot of things. Sometimes it sucks but I try not to let it stress me because that's known for causing outbreaks and I don't want those

Thanks you Katie. I'm so happy for this forum because I am determined to live my life without anything getting in my way

Well, I remember the night clearly (of course, it was 2 days before my 20th bday) I was texting my EX boyfriend and we had finally made plans to become intimate after five years of being broken up (We have never been intimate with each other before besides the occasional make out sessions). He came to pick me up. We went to his house, popped a flick in, and proceeded to making out and doing things wouldn't do in public. He said something like "girl u gone start something u Aint gone wanna finish". I brushed it off. We had unprotected sex, we conversed for another hour then he dropped me off back home after making reference to another ex boyfriend that him and I both knew. Ikr, some "date". He texted me the next day and I didn't hear from him again. The day after he last texted me (aka my bday) I get this strong itch on the right side of my vag right before the entrance. I panicked because I never felt a itch so strong in one spot before and notice a discharge. I go about my day push that off after making mental note to contact a gyno who accepts my insurance. I call the next day schedule an appointment and wait two weeks to be seen. I go in and silently pray to my maker that I don't have HIV, herpes or the new antibiotic resistant strand of gonorrhea. I already had it made up in my mind those were the WORST diseases anybody could have. I'm completely honest while I fill out my registration form (how many partners in lifetime, last pap, yada yada yada). I tell my nurse practitioner my previous symptoms (btw the itch only lasted a couple says I think) and you know what she says? "That's usually a indication of herpes." My heart sank. She gives me my paperwork to take to LabCorp, I go straight there they tell me results back in 24 hrs or a few days depending on doc office. I count down those days all the while researching the herpes symptoms and self analyzing some other things I notice ( three itchy bumps on my rear). I conclude, yup that's probably herpes, but ill wait till my nurse calls. She does and confirms my denial. I have herpes. That day (May 21, 2013 at about 3pm CT) I was at a lost. I texted my neglecting ex and say "Is there anything you need to tell me?" Of course he has no idea what I'm talking about but I tell him I want to see him ASAP, he insists I tell him thru text. Hell no. Screen shot technology, I won't embarrass myself. We go back in forth until I finally give up on the whole thing and tell him have a nice life. That day I research like hell symptoms, types, coping methods and whatever else I could think about my Bday present. I call my nurse back and ask for my Igg number she says 20 I say I want to take suppressive therapy to reduce the risk of herpes transmission (I met a great guy right before I found out. Go figure). I get my script and go about my days. I tried to break down but I feel like its my fault. I can't even actually say my ex gave it to me because I don't know how long I've had it. I'm scared thinking that I may have passed it to somebody else. I'm lost, angry sometimes, hurt, defeated and I feel kinda abandoned by God (not all the time though its more of a why me). I'm trying to stay as positive as ever. I'm so grateful for this forum and I will be back to see when I should disclose to my new friend (we haven't had sex, only kisses once). I just wanted to share my story and hope you wonderful people can give me some advice and feedback. My sister found out after she found my new meds i thought i hid in my messy drawer and I was angry with her because I wanted to keep my present to myself for a little bit longer. She was so supportive though. Thank God for her. She's older than me and she told me its not the end of the world and no you don't look like a huge herpe germ. Lol. I'm sorry my story is so long I wanted to get out all I thought was necessary. But lastly can anyone tell me if 20 is a real igg number/ can it be that high or higher? Also I'm sure I have HSV-2, no cold sores ever. I haven't had the painful below the waist OB I keep reading about. I don't want to pay to much insurance money on getting additional tests so I'm guessing the valtrex will keep it calm. Okay I'm done ranting. Lol.