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Dear Pepps, I'm going through the same, except other than this forum I have no one to talk to. Yes the pains are strange and weird and heavens forbid you have one moment of relief, something else starts. Forget about what anyone else thinks. The most important people in your life are the only ones that matter. For the pain, itching, burning and numbness, the only thing that's worked is neem oil for me. I believe you can buy neem cream as well. It also helps with help healing the leisions faster. If you are having nerve pains, there are some medications that your doc can prescribe. I hope you get over this OB soon. Sending healing thoughts your way. I am just finishing my first OB and have run smack into my period. xox ~ me

I am grateful that I have this life to live. My kids, my family, my idiot dog. I am grateful for the opportunity with the work I do.

PS - it's worst at night!!!

Right now it feels bleak. But I have gone through so much, this seems like loose change to add to the heap. I look at my kids, at the life I have now and I remind myself that things could be worse. This seems like a good starting point for the rest of my life. I have this forum so I feel my thoughts and feelings can be heard. I am so fortunate to be doing what I am. So what if I never have a companion? I will be strong with myself for my kids, for all the social work I do. I will continue mentoring young women to be the best they can be. I will pour my heart and soul into things that are meaningful to me. It feels bleak, but I'll be fine. X

I'm new to the H (just a week in). Thank you for posting this. I feel the same way. I try to find small ways to give love and feel needed. Suicide is very close to how I am feeling too. But as an article on this site said, the feeling will pass, all feelings pass. Don't give in to the negativity. xox ~ me PS - if you need to, we can skype ... or talk - message me x

Thank you for your kind words and sharing your story. It really means a lot. What bothers me the most (and I know this is just venting) is that the final "nail to the coffin" with my ex was him screaming at me that I had an affair. I believe that HE had an affair. I started the antivirals last week, with the ointments, I guess all doctors prescribe Mupirocin Ointment. They only sell it in 5g teensy tubes here. So, in the middle of the night, up in pain, I decided to go through our old "medicine" box. I found a 20g tube of mupirocin next to a tube of hydrocortisone. And all of a sudden, I remember clear as day that my ex had been complaining of red rash/spots. I realize now that he must have had it. The last time we did the deed was in Oct 2013. Shortly after I had one pimple every month just after my period. which coincided with my bikini wax. So I just thought it was an ingrown hair. I feel so betrayed. I had just opened an account on a dating site and a guy is super interested in me. And I just am so, so lost. It's a huge blow. As you can imagine being a divorcee in India is a huge thing. Now this. I know I will weather it. I must if not for myself, then for the kids. I miss having someone in my life that I can love and trust. It's been so long. My heart is crushed.

Thank you. Thank you.

Hi L. I am brand new to this. However, I read on numerous websites that neem oil helps. I happen to live in India so neem oil is easy to obtain. And I have to say in 4 applications the pain and itching has subsided. You can usually obtain it at Indian grocery stores or try googling it online. Either neem oil or neem cream. X

Hi all, I am waiting to get a blood test done for herpes, but I am pretty sure I have it. And I have it bad. I think I got it from my ex-husband of 15 years. There is no other way. I am soon to be divorced with 2 kids and I live in India. This is a life sentence for me. So I'm just trying to come to terms with what all this means. I am in constant pain both emotional and physical. other than my mom and doctors, no one knows. And I am mortified of people finding out. I feel lost and lonely and keep thinking of just running away. I can imagine no future of companionship or love. I was emotionally and physically abused by my ex. I finally had the guts to break it off and now this. I am devastated.

Hi All! Checking in from India. Anyone by me whom I can chat with? Thanks!