bonafiderarity

I'm feeling really confused right now. I've decided to go back and read all the posts. But I'm not sure how to feel right now. I was feeling pretty optimistic because I had read so many successes in the disclosure talks. But now I'm reading more and more of people being rejected and hurt. I'm really scared. I feel like I'm having a panic attack. I disclosed to my son's dad because we get together here and there and he didn't care. And I had to tell the guy I slept with two days before I went to the Dr and he said the only people that would care are people who are uneducated. He said he wanted to get to know me more and are where things go. he said seeing how I handled it and was an adult by telling him made him like me more but then he just distanced himself and he left. I'm starting to feel like no one will be okay with it. I'm not even sure I would have been if the shoe was on the other foot.

thank you for posting this. it makes me hope that I feel how you do when I hit 3 years. but I just got to one month and it's all I think about.

wow learning, our stories are so similar. my doctor swore 100% that it was not h :-(

just wanted to say that maybe he is so educated about it because he's like me. for some reason h has always been my biggest fear. literally a phobia. so I would read everything I could about it.. and that's how I knew something wasnt right. because I knew so much about it. I would give your boyfriend the benefit of the doubt until you can talk to him. best wishes!

I just started too. this is rough.

thanks cedar. I'm definitely confused to. they called me the next day with results. I didn't know they come so fast!

you just gave me hope. thank you.

that's where I'm confused because the first doctor said it didn't look like it and then she came back from her office with a book saying she thinks it might be. and she cultured it and gave me a blood test. and then the third doctor was the one who said there is 116 strands of hsv.... not hpv but apparently she got them confused. but Ya she's the one who said it didn't look like it. all of them have said it doesn't look like it. on my final test she was poking and prodding and no pain. so then she cut one open and clearly that hurt. but even after she popped it... they didn't spread. idk. I'm so confused.

I'm new so I thought I'd share. back around October I had this pain and made a same day appt with my doctor. she gave me a pelvic exam and said it did not look like herpes which made me happy because my whole sexually active life that had been my biggest fear. she said it looked like irritation and a few cuts. then she left the room and came back with a book and said she thinks it might be h. I had tunnel vision....I was scared, hurt, I literally wanted to die. I asked for a test and she agreed. my culture came back as negative for herpes and positive for staph and ecoli. she put me on antibiotics and it went away within maybe two days. I told my then bf about it and he was very supportive. One night while we were waiting for my results we decided to have sex. I told him we needed to use a condom because I don't want to give it to him in case he doesn't have it. mid sex he took the condom off saying he didn't care cuz he loved me that much....I think he was the one who gave it to me. then in December it came back. so I went to my gyno this time she said it didn't look like herpes but that she would test Me for it just in case. this test came back negative as well but positive for strep. antibiotics cured it up. then it came back at the end of February so I called my gyno that delivered my son... she was booked all day but a nurse practitioner could fit Me in. she looked at it and said I'm 100% positive this is not herpes. I was so relieved. she did a culture and a blood test. the next day I got my results. One came back saying just hsv and the other came back abnormal. she said there are like 116 different strands and that's why It didn't say 1 or 2 and that the other one came back abnormal. I talked to my gunk that delivered my son the next day and she said she definitely believes it is hsv2. I'm confused though because the nurse practitioner said she wanted to test me again in 3 months because she really doesn't think it's that. I think the np having said all that is what got my hopes up. so there's my story. sorry is my grammar is horrible... I'm doing this all from my phone.

I'm looking for a buddy. I live in salt lake. I got diagnosed a month ago today. And I'm in Chicago often.