We Will Be Okay

[Sarah317]

I just wanted to say good morning and say that we will be okay.. all of us. I was diagnosed a month ago and have lost the relationship that gave this to me. He was unaware he had it until now. While losing us has been devastating, it was also necessary at least for now. But, as I push forward, I am feeling a bit more at peace. There are times when I still stand in disbelief, but then I ask myself, “Why not me?” Just like most adults my age, I have sex, and nothing can protect you 100%. No one is at fault. It just is. I will focus on taking care of me more, something I’m not used to as I am one of those people that takes care of everyone else. So, for this reason, herpes will be good for me. It also clarified some issues in this last relationship that weren’t good for me. 

Thank you to all here on this forum that have been there for me. ♥️
 

Have hope. Have courage. 

[mr_hopp]

Beautiful. Big hugs for all the courage and for your deep commitment to your healing. I’m so glad we got to connect. 

[NJRunnerMom]

Hey Sarah.  Thanks for posting this.  I need to go back and read this today.  Not really feeling it right now.  I'm feeling lost, broken, unwanted, etc.  This thing has really broken my spirit about life.  I'm up and I'm down...it's a daily struggle.  My only hope is that time is the key to all of this because right now I don't feel like this will ever get better.

[Sarah317]

@NJRunnerMom, I know that rollercoaster too well. I find that when I’m slipping into the lows, I try to reframe my mind with one of my mantras like, “I am amazing and the RIGHT love will recognize that in me.” I also look at the facts that @mr_hopp has provided and remind myself that this really isn’t as bad as my mind wants to make it out to be. I know my mind can push me right into depression, so I challenge it every day.

also, I meant to post this on the other thread... I stopped the Valtrex. It was worsening my depression even taking it at night. I really don’t need it right now. I will give it another shot when I am happier and maybe do half (500mg). I just don’t need anything chemically assisting with keeping me down. 
 

I’m always here if you need me. ♥️

[NJRunnerMom]

3 minutes ago, Sarah317 said:

also, I meant to post this on the other thread... I stopped the Valtrex. It was worsening my depression even taking it at night. I really don’t need it right now. I will give it another shot when I am happier and maybe do half (500mg). I just don’t need anything chemically assisting with keeping me down. 

Thanks for that and I did the same thing.  I'm not seeing anyone and I haven't had another OB yet either so I got off of it too.

[beihaigirl2004]

Hugs to you both! I've actually been in a decent place lately. I'm not as pissed off at the entire situation and am starting to deal with it. I found out my aunt too has HSV2 so its been nice having someone who knows what I'm going thru. Its a learning process. Learning to love ourselves even with our "gift". 

[Sarah317]

@beihaigirl2004 That is so good to hear! I’m on my journey learning to love myself more. I’m not sure I would’ve taken this path without my diagnosis. It needed to happen. ♥️