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Hahahahaha wouldn't it be nice if it would just move it's happy little blistery self to our ankles and that be it?! Life with H would be so much easier!

Victoriaxxx is right!! Take a deep breath and know that everything is going to be okay. Someone will love you regardless of anything else. Loving yourself is the first step! Plus this is the time to live, do things you have always wanted to do but never did, travel, do something crazy fun. Just learn to enjoy your life and live it to the fullest. Focus on you and the right person will come when you least expect it. You have a lot of support here from all of us. Lots of hugs for you sweet girl!!

Dolly, Sweetheart you have no idea how much my brain still goes crazy. I still wake up sometime feeling bummed about the situation, but I have found that I have the power to change it and turn it all around. Running has always been a great stress reliever, but when I found out about my little friend H I stopped all that. Since this post I've gone back to my normal routine of working out everyday and even though sometimes this virus makes me feel ugly I force myself to dress up extra nice and it really does work!! My attitude changes completely! If you need any advice or someone to talk to feel free to message me Dolly!! Lots of hugs!!

Hi Dolly, and welcome!! I feel like I can relate a lot to your story! After a week of getting back with an ex boyfriend that meant a lot to me I had my first OB days after having sex with him. I freaked and told him I thought it may be H. I wasn't informed about H yet so I panicked when I delivered the news. He has been so supportive and amazing to me. Hasn't allowed this to treat me any different. As for deciding to take your time or continue to date him. I agree with Herry, take it one day at a time and I believe things will workout just as they should. Having H has caused me to be on a crazy roller coaster of emotions. One day good one day miserable, but if this guy is willing to be supportive and understanding that's definitely a good thing. If things don't work out then you can look at it as a sign to take you time. You seem to be doing great and have a good outlook on this even if it is just temporary. Thankfully this site is a lot of help, and all of the people on here will be so loving and comforting so you will never be alone. It's great to meet you!! Hugs!!

Hahaha I can't miss this!

That double dog dare is what did it for me!!

@victoriaxxx thank you sweet girl

LOL!!! THANK YOU!! I totally just jammed out to that entire song in my office at work!!

Wow! Talk about moving!! Thank you for sharing!! Two days ago I was having a really rough day with my H, and randomly one of the workers here at work started texting me. He then mentioned to me that he used to have cancer. I had no clue this guy had been through that. He went on to explain that it was so bad the doctors didn't give him much of a chance and had him say goodbye to his family before surgery because they were hopeful, but it was so risky. Surprisingly enough he made it through surgery and then had to follow up with chemo and radiation. I asked him how he made it through all of that and he simply said "I stayed positive, there was never a doubt in my mind that I would make it through." 5 years later he is cancer free, working hard, and a very happy man. I then took a step back and realized that I was allowing something as small as a skin condition beat me to the ground, and this man didn't allow life threatening cancer affect him one bit. I now will look forward to the beautiful future I have ahead, because H is not life threatening and H will not control my life!! I'm sorry to get so off subject, but this video reminded me of this story and I just had to share and hope that this helps all of you as much as it helped me!! Hugs to all of you and thank you for this beautiful video Dancer!!

@JustSmile Thank you, dear!! It feels good to not feel ashamed of who I am! Im sending a huge hug to you through this forum for the talks and support youve given me from day 1! @HerryTheHerp Hahahaha thank you for making me feel completely normal and I'll be waiting to make it into that hall of fame! lol Your threads and comments always lighten the mood and manage to make me smile and laught it off. THANK YOU FOR THAT!! I didnt think that somthing as simple as just showing my face on this site would make me feel so free. I dont care anymore though. This feeling of liberation is incredible! The best part is knowing we are not alone through this. LOTS OF LOVE AND HUGS TO BOTH OF YOU!!!

Thank you all for the encouragement and the awesome double dog dare!! Here I am happy and Lord all mighty it feels good!! So good I'll break into song!! “Birds flyin' high, you know how I feel Sun in the sky, you know how I feel Breeze driftin' on by, you know how I feel It's a new dawn, it's a new day, it's a new life for me. Yeah, it's a new dawn, it's a new day, it's a new life for me, ooooooooh... And I'm feelin' good." Whoo!! Lol thank you all again let's go walk hand in hand no shame, no worries, no pain (unless we're in a OB). Feeling Happy and free!!! Lots of love and hugs to all of you!!

@JustSmile you were the vey first person I talked to also!! And the more I'm here the more I am tempted to add a picture and march head high hand in hand with my fellow H friends! :)

Such a beautiful video!! THANK YOU ADRIAL!!! :)

The lyrics to this song were so perfect for what i have been going throught since i found out about H. My favorite part.. "Night has always pushed up day You must know life to see decay But I won't rot, I won't rot Not this mind and not this heart, I won't rot." http://youtu.be/z3RP1VbUaaA

JustSmile, I have been feeling the exact same way about this H friend. I want to just accept it and move on, but as much as i pretend im okay and as much as i say "its not that big of a deal" i cant wrap my head around how someone is going to accept me with this. I dont understand how i will tell someone about having this if my current bf decides to leave. I want to be able to wake up and not feel like something is wrong with me. All of this coming out of the closet is making me want to face my fear, and just put a picture of myself too.. maybe with time.. baaah! what am i so afraid of?! lol Maybe once we all start standing together, strong, and with our heads held high people will start seeing this virus for what it really is! THANK YOU!! & great pic!

Herry, I've heard a lot of good things about Melissa baum and have been considering trying it out. Only problem is I don't know where to find some. If you do try it please let me know how it works for you.

Oh my goodness. You are my hero!! Lol I am sending you the biggest hug through this thread right now!!! Everything you said and have done is so admirable and just amazing. I'm having trouble putting the right words together after reading that, but thank you. It feels like a giant step for all of us. Hopefully this will cause a ripple effect which will lead to educating people that what we have, This little annoying friend of ours, is just a nuisance and nothing more!! Thank you so much for being such a strong woman. It's so admirable and so encouraging!! Lots of love and lots of hugs going you way!!

Herry, You have been one of the brightest lights in these forums. You always find the way to make us smile and just laugh at our situation. It's makes me so mad that this heartless b**** did this to you, and the sadder part is that you won't be the last man she gives this virus to. She didn't feel any remorse for giving it to you, and she won't when she gives it to the next guy. Finding out who she is now is the best things that could have happened. She would have just been one heartache after another, and although I only know you through these threads I can say you deserve so much more than this woman, H or no H! As for telling her boyfriend, I think he deserves to know. He has a right to know that she played both of you, and that she gave you this. He need to get tested and understand who he's "loving" before they end up with something worse. Just keep in mind that she was never a good woman. She sounds to have some deeper personal issue within herself and hurting others is some strange way of coping. You don't deserve a woman like that!! You deserve so much more!! You have managed to make so many of us smile when we felt so low, and that's the kind of man who deserves the best kind of woman. Keep your head up sweetheart. We will all get through this pain, fear, and darkness together. Hugs!!

Victoria, sweetheart, your threads make me smile! Hearing how well you're doing everyday helps me see that herpes isn't a big deal. I can relate to you too because I'm finally able to smile and enjoy my time without having this be the only thing I think about. I enjoy reading your stories and how positive you are about everything! :)

Three weeks ago I started to self destruct. It all started when I had my first BO. I wasn't sure, but my gut feeling told me it was definitely the "big and scary" H. I told my reconnected bf about it and was for sure things would be done. He was gone for a week and a half for holidays, and his busy schedule made had me thinking it was this issue that was driving him away. Finally on December 31, 2013 I get my H results; "a low positive." The results confused me a bit, but it was pretty much what I had expected. The very next day my bf gets back into town and I tell him (with all the facts and the most positive attitude I could possibly have) about my positive diagnosis. He was reassuring and comforting, but after having to go our separate ways my brain started analyzing every little thing. I went over and over in my head everything he said and somehow it wasn't enough.. My 4 yr old kiddo got really sick that night and my bf was supportive and very helpful even through that. The next day I felt the world start falling apart when he told me that his results for H came back negative. I by no means was hoping he had it, but I was surer he was done. Again he assured me that we were okay and that he wanted to see only me.. I heard what he said but my brain didn't accept it. Red lights started flashing and I started analyzing everything that had changed. I my mind he was done and I was heartbroken. I was going through a breakup before ever being broken up with!!!! Through all of this I stressed out so much about everything that I managed to lose 7 lbs from just stressing (yay me!! Lol)! And then came Saturday. Another day to dread because like I said before, I was going through a "break up." Finally that night he calls and text to ask me to go out with him. I said yes and had an amazing time!! I made sure to take all the advice I was given on this site and act normal to show him why he came back in the first place , and that this small virus wouldn't change who I am. Again, we had a wonderful time and he never once acted any different. He acted like a completely normal bf. This morning he and I went to church together and after church he took both my son and me to lunch, and then to his job because he figured my son would enjoy seeing some of the machines. (A little side note: I became a momma at the age of 19 and have been a single mother since my son was born) seeing this man care so much for my sons happiness was amazing and then realizing that he knew about my H and he was still there not just with me but with my son as well made me realize how much I had been killing myself over nothing. I had been destroying my happiness over absolutely nothing!! I take a deep breath and smile because i can see how wrong I was and how I need to actually put my brain on pause sometimes. Over analyzing things won't do anything but stress a person out and unless you're looking to lose weight the stress is no fun!! I'm happy to say that i have learned that I cannot control what happens tomorrow, and although tomorrow may hurt there no need to ruin today over something that May or may not happens tomorrow. I'm smiling again and I understand that this small H really is small and I made it into the one thing controlling my life. Not again. I will stay in this positive state of mind and if I happen to cross a difficult part of my life I will take it, learn from it, and move on. I have found this beautiful site where I have found some amazing people supporting me through things that I have built up myself and the best part is you all understand that this self sabotage is caused by the insecurities of having H. Thank you to all of you that gave me wonderful advice and for all the hugs!!! I truly appreciate every single one of you!!

Good luck!!! My thoughts are with you tonight!!

Pam, Adrian said it perfectly!! You have been so quick to reply and be supportive of our posts. You're so positive, inspiring, and loving. Youve made it easy to open up to look for advice. Thank you for everything you have done for me in the last few days. You're very special to this site and I'm sure to all of us. Lots of hugs to you and thank you for all the hugs!! Thank you! Thank you! Thank you!!! :) :)

Victoria xx, You my dear are truly inspirational!! As much as I've been struggling with staying positive reading this definitely made me smile and just want to keep a smile on my face. I am not usually one to wallow in my problems, but this has got the best of me. Not anymore though!! I need to accept myself and truly take all this amazing support to keep moving forward! Thank you for the positive uplifting posts!! Big hug!

Good afternoon everyone! Thank you all for the great advice and @onthebrightside you answered my biggest concern. I haven't heard from him since he gave me his results yesterday, but I'm okay with that. I understand it's a lot to process and he'll contact me when he's ready. I'm going to trust what he said and believe him. I have no reason not to. I went for a run (and my H mess this morning) this morning and the run helped a lot! I also couldn't help but giggle at the ridiculous price of those meds without insurance. Lol I think the price hurt more than the OB itself. I'm feeling better today and I hope this positive view continues for a while. I feel like I've been on such a roller coaster of emotions, but all of this amazing support really gets me back on track to feeling great and staying positive. Thank you all so much lots of hugs to all of you!!

This is amazing!! I am so happy for you!! This story gives me hope and keeps me going! Thank you for sharing and I'm SO happy for you!! :) :) :) :)