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Yea I have thought that too lol! I guess all of my OBs have had bumps that touched another part of my lady parts and it didn't seem to jump to that other side. Ugh, hopefully it clears up fast.. Please reassure me and tell me this WILL get better.. Lord I can't deal with this happening every month!! I know it says the first year is usually the worst.. But do most people usually get some sort of handle on it with their body and the OBS become few and far between? :-/ feeling pretty hopeless at the moment :-/

Oh and dancer, how often should I apply these things to the bump??

Thank you!! Is it ok to use it during an OB? Will I speead it up there if the tampon touches where I'm possibly shedding? The bump is pretty close to my area!!

I really need to order that alum!!!! Going to do that tonight!! And I'm going to get some peroxide tomorrow as soon as I get up.. Right now it just looks like a pimple.. I'm taking suppressives so I went ahead and doubled up.. I'll keep it doubled for a few days too. I actually thought i was feeling some prodrome a few days ago so I doubled up for 2 days I think and then went back to just 1.. Should I have doubled up longer? I wish I knew what I was doing to cause these OBs.. I'm trying so hard to be extra healthy :-( I am also on my period, so I can't really go commando for a few more days.. And I was using tampons since I didn't seem to be having an OB, but now I don't think that's a good idea.. Ughhhhh I'm just so upset.. Thank you dancer, as always! I appreciate you!!!

Love it! Beautifully written!!! Best of luck! Please update us!!!

So I just noticed a bump that I am assuming is my 3rd outbreak.. My 3rd OB in 3 months.. Just 3 weeks since my last. I'm feeling super depressed and frustrated. Right back into that super dark place.. I just want to cry.. I still can't believe this is my reality.. I'm very much struggling. I thought I was doing okay, but I'm not. Anyways, This OB is in a totally different spot than my last 2.. And the bump looks huge compared to the others. I'm terrified of what it's going to look like tomorrow. I'm also super disappointed bc I've been on suppressives since my last OB.. I know it doesn't prevent them, but I thought it would certainly help more than it seems to be helping. Especially considering I was OB free for 7 weeks between the 1st and 2nd and was off meds completely for 4 weeks. Anyways, each OB seems to be worse than the one before.. Which is super discouraging. I'm healthy, I don't smoke, don't drink excessively, and I am pretty fit physically. I'm very frustrated that my body can't seem to handle this thing better :-( Anyways, this bump is in a spot (inner labia this time) that touches my other side.. Is it going to spread? do I need to try and cover it or put something on it to make sure it doesn't touch the other side?? Any advice or encouragement would be greatly appreciated!! Thank you!!! I'm barely hanging on here :-(

I'm right where with you.. I just noticed a BIG ASS BUMP on my inner labia and I'm terrified about what it's going to look like tomorrow.. All of mine seem to be getting worse and worse too, I really don't understand this thing :-( and I'm on suppressives.. It's only been 3 weeks since my last OB :-( Feeling sick to my stomach and back in that dark place.. The bump is in a spot that touches my other side.. Is it going to spread??? I'm freaking out.. I hope you heal up fast from yours!!

Absolutely love it!! Great read!!!!

Happy for you! Thanks for sharing! Posts like this give me hope! I haven't had to disclose yet, but I know the time is coming and it makes me completely SICK to my stomach.. It's all I think about, day and night... The mental aspect of H is almost worse than the physical!!! Good luck with your new relationship :-)

@seeker I haven't disclosed to any potential partner yet, but I do feel like it would be a little easier if the person was H+ too. But unless you're on an H dating site or something, I guess there's always a chance ANYONE you date could be H+ and you'd never know until the disclosure. Disclosing to anyone, potential partner, friend, family, etc, just makes me all kinds of anxious and sick to my stomach. I am certainly not ready :-(

I do actually like it chilled :-) I might be able to shed some light here.. I, personally, can go without oral.. I'm much more of a hands girl when it comes to foreplay. But if my guy wanted to do it, I would.. Which I find it interesting that most DO want to lol! I'm very insecure about my body, always have been. Not sure why, but I am uncomfortable with a face down there and could never really let myself relax to enjoy it.. Prob why I can go without it. Everyone is different, I guess! :-)

LOL smiling is so necessary!!! No losing that smile! I read a quote the other day that has stuck with me and I'll share it now :-) "If you see someone without a smile, give them yours." :-)

You are incredible! This story gives me hope that there are other open minded people out there who will not shun me due to this minor thing that I REFUSE to let be a huge deal in my life! I really hope all the best for you with this... Please keep us all posted!! :-)

Hmmm I love a good red wine :-)

Yea I weaned myself down from 2G per day to 500mg before I stopped completely.. And I wish I could STOP looking lol. Every time I feel anything, mirror in hand lol. I've seen my whohaa more in the last 3 months than in my entire life lol! I'm sick of feeling paranoid at every tingle, itch, whatever!!! Ugh have a Reece's for me too PLEASE! I ate almost all of my daughters halloween candy lol! After that and halloween parties and drinking and football on Sunday, Momma is back on her diet lol!!

Ok @seeker.. You have made my night.. Cracking me up on every post!! Lol

HAHAHAHAHA!! I love this place! Yall are great!!!

OMG dancer I love this!! "Depression is living in the past Anxiety is living in the future You will only find peace" Stealing that :-) And LOL @seeker!!!! I'm sorry about what you're going through! I can totally relate to constant fears about the future... It's normal to feel how you're feeling! Try to stay calm and focus on yourself, like every one else is saying.. That's what im doing too! You have to love yourself first :-)

Hahahahahahaha let me check flights to FL real quick LOL!!! Thank you, @dancer! Def checking that out :-)

I'm sorry, hun! I hope the meds help fast! Are you just feeling weird things or are there bumps? It's so strange how different all of our bodies are when it comes to H.. Some have zero symptoms, others have terrible frequent obs, and still most of us experience different symptoms with our OBs.. tingles, itches, flu like symptoms, bumps and blisters.. I just don't understand it, I really don't! I didn't have any noticible symptoms with my first, just the bump I noticed. Second OB I felt a sharp pain right in the area the OB showed up in.. As a shooting pain through my left butt cheek.. So damn strange.. :-/

Hahahahahahaha @seeker I just laughed.. And don't tempt me.. Hahahaha Thank you :-) Yea, I suppose you're right.. I still struggle some days with all of this.. Baby steps I guess! Sex right now is just hard to imagine.. I guess the stigma gets to me still.. The main question of "will anyone ever want to have sex with me again?" is on my mind a lot.. And of course, with sex comes the disclosure.. And that's a whole new can of worms right there that I just can't imagine yet :-/

Well that's some good news lol! I've always been big into foreplay.. Sort of devastating to think those days could be behind me. I'll just have to continue learning my body with this new part of it and when that time comes, I'll deal with it then I suppose. dancer you are right.. If sex with this was so "impossible" or whatever, there's a huge chunk of the population miserable as hell lol!!

I finished my script after my first OB and weaned myself down to no meds.. Was med free for 4 weeks and was feeling super positive (and normal)! And then my second OB started and I was so bummed out.. But I decided to try and go med free.. That lasted 1 day.. I sort of said "screw this, I have these meds for a reason" and started back on them. It cleared up in 5 days and I've been on a suppressive dose since (about 2.5 weeks). It's a constant internal battle because I want my body to build immunity and what not.. But I need my sanity.. And being OB free keeps me semi sane.. I'm not sure what's going on at the moment since I'm feeling tingles, but I'm really hoping it turns out to be nothing!! Good luck and just listen to your body and do what you feel is best!! :-)

Thank you for the positivity!!!! I am so happy for you and how far you have come! I hope to join you there one day!! :-) posts and stories like this give me hope and the motivation to keep going! Some days are certainly better than others, as we all know!!! Happy for you!!! Thanks again for sharing!!

I think I'm sort of in your boat too.. I'm currently taking suppressives and I'm starting to feel strange tingles that remind me of what I felt before my second OB.. And I'm Pretty sure Iwill be starting any day now.. I'm not sure if its in my head, if it's my period coming, or if it's something else. I decided to double up for a few days just in case. I stopped The meds for an entire month and had my period without any issues.. Not sure why I seem to be having weird tingles now :-/