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I am sat here with a great big grin on my face now. Had some time off here. Only a few days actually , but missed you all x

Adrial Your reply made me cry. I needed to hear these words, but for something other than herpes, so thank you. I had some time away from here, because I thought It was contributing to me thinking so often about herpes. But then I realised that I think about it anyway, and that this site is so much more than herpes , so thank you. And abc123. My heart goes out to you, but you must try to think about the many positives you have rather than the one thing that you are caught up in. ( I know easier said than done) a few years ago someone once suggested to me to keep a positive book. It was a little note pad on with a bright rainbow on the front. In the book she suggested that everyday I write 3 things that I had done that were positive, increasing to 5 things. I did this over a period of time, and although didn't totally stop me thinking about how bad a person I was for causing someone close to me to hurt. It did make me realise that in addition to that one negative thing I did, I also do many many positive things. But for some reason I tended to over look these and dwell on and beat my self up constantly over that one mistake.... go figure. Big hugs Mrs x

"Relationship is the place where one goes to give, not take. In the meantime, (h) can be a beacon of light guiding me through dark pathways. Somehow, herpes is stripping layers of dust off of my soul" This is wonderful ! thank you for posting this :-)

As I walked to my car this morning I looked up to the most amazing red sky , it took my breath and I had to take a picture ( I wanted to post the picture I took but cant figure out how to do it, and the picture doesn't actually do the reality much justice, so you'll just have to trust me on this one ) . Anyway, I just love dramatic sky's, they some how make me think about how vast our universe is and how significant I am in comparison. So this morning on my way to work feeling all insignificant to the world, I suddenly thought .... if I am so insignificant this little virus I carry in my body is not even on the radar and in the grand scheme of things well.......... Just some food for though :-)

So so proud of you peach. Well done you ! Oh and I love the expression you used "spazz out " xxx

Nic and peach, you have added picture since I was last on ! That's ace and your both beautiful xxxx

Glad you feel better And aerial that is freaky ! I don't label my self really, only when it sys we are the most intelligent sign hahah !! Xx

Found it. Enjoy xx http://www.livinglifefully.com/flo/flopreciouspresent.htm

Arh thanks abc123. A big welcome to you , we are glad your here to join our ittle H family :-) xx

hahah Peach you did it again :-D :-D xx

I take Aciclovir ( not sure if that's the brand name rather than the medication name). I had continual outbreaks for months and haven't had one properly since going on suppressive ( only tingles ect) I have had no side effects and when my GP stops prescribing ( he says 3 months and see, and I am coming to the end) I will just pay for it ( UK its free while prescribed :-)) because for me its being a god sent ! hope it works for you x

Thanks nice. I would give you all a little book called the precious present ( at the back it says to give to all those you care about) even though I don't know you physically. I feel we all have a spiritual connection and I care for you all ! Now obviously the physical thing is a problem so I cannot give you the book. But I have told you about it, so go and buy it. Its a small simple pocket story about the precious present ! simple yet effective x

Thank you for sharing this, and I am so please that after so long you are healing yourself. Its good to have you here xx

Oww looking forward to it :-D

baffled I am glad you are reading these posts and that they are helping. We have all been there, but trust me you will start to feel better both physically and mentally. Everybody is different with that time frame, but you will. I am like a different person now than I was even before I was even diagnosed. I have learnt so much about my self. Don't get me wrong, I would prefer not to have had to deal with this, but there is a positive in every negative. Maybe when you have healed physically You can also turn this thing around and use it as a starting point to be an even better person that you was previously. I am not saying I never get down. In fact I am on a bit of a down today, but I am in a hell of a lot better place than I was. Hang in there girl, you will come through this x

Oww thank you, I love your poems, please keep posting them x

So glad you are doing better. Thanks for keeping us updated x

This is beautiful thank you x and Adrial thank you for the needing v yearning it is brilliant :-)

http://img9.joyreactor.com/pics/post/flow-chart-283079.jpeg I love your last one !! thank I'll call a draw on that :-) xx

haha I could go on all night.. my frav pass time ... geeky and a tad sad maybe, but I dont bloody care !! :-D xx

Hey I'm the queen on abandonment issues. The fact you have worked through so many other things is fantastic. I still have to work on the attachment to how my body should look !! and as I get older and gravity and collagen depletion sets in I am beginning to think that its time to let go of this attachment. Get the ice cream out !! ha

haha Are we having a quote off ? "All of our miseries are nothing but attachment. Our whole ignorance and darkness is a strange combination of a thousand and one attachments. And we are attached to things which will be taken away by the time of death, or even perhaps before. You may be very much attached to money but you can go bankrupt tomorrow. You may be very much attached to your power and position, your presidency, your prime ministership, but they are like soap bubbles. Today they are here, tomorrow not even a trace will be left"

"I feel alone and sad. I don't feel like myself these days. The only thoughts running thru my mind is how could I have been so dumb to trust him, that I will forever be alone, that I'm dirty and I have no idea how I would go about telling someone if that ever came around. I just want to feel normal again.. " That was me in June, but with some deep soul searching and the amazing people on here I am starting to be in a better place than I was previous to H. and you know what. If I am alone for a long time, at least now the next person I am with I am with for all the right reasons, and I will know he truly loves me for me and not just for sex !! :-) You will over come this , in your own time, but you will sending hugs to you x

"My Glass was half empty. Then it dropped and broke into pieces… And I learnt that when you have nothing left to lose, you have everything to gain."

oowww you've set me off !! :-D “The reason many people in our society are miserable, sick, and highly stressed is because of an unhealthy attachment to things they have no control over.” “Mostly it is loss which teaches us about the worth of things.” "A thought is harmless unless we believe it. It’s not our thoughts, but our attachment to our thoughts, that causes suffering. Attaching to a thought means believing that it’s true, without inquiring. A belief is a thought that we’ve been attaching to, often for years.”