Jennie

Just got the call! Hsv-1 positive 2 negative. I am relieved to finally know!

Thank you! Not THAT new been physical since probably April/June? Always used protection until August (now I ALWAYS use protection and on suppressives.) The truth is it COULD* be possible I got it from him IF* he is positive now that I look back on my timeline. But my past - from my first ever post, still makes it seem unlikely that it was from him. And it doesn't matter where I got it anyways, I have it and I'm dealing with it. But anyways I will talk to him, and do what I have to do to protect him. And part of that is knowing for sure what his status is(:

No he has never been tested. When I first disclosed to him he even said that maybe it was him who gave it to me because he hasn't been tested (though I highly doubt that because of the levels of antibodies in my blood - we are fairly new). Plus I am not sure what type I have yet, will hopefully know next week. I guess the reason I am not pushing him to get tested at this point is because even if he does come back positive I'm scared it'll be because I gave it to him/: Or at least be assumed that he got it from me. But bucking up and sucking up, I will talk to him about it. Because if he is positive then I can stop worrying so much and have the wonder stop haunting me. He seems to genuinely care about me so I doubt he will use the blame card, its just my own insecurities that make me worried about it,

@Dancer He definitely knows my status and he has never had a cold sore. So since my diagnosis he hasn't gone down on me to be safe, was just curious about the risk of him getting cold sores if he ever did. Thanks for the feedback!

I was wondering something similar. How likely would it be to give someone cold sores if I have ghsv1 and received oral?

Its completely normal! Denial is all part of the process, and as you go through the different stages (basically the stages of grieving) you will find yourself coming back to denial. It would be just so so easy if it was wrong. (And you know sometimes it is wrong). I'm pretty positive I have H and I still find myself wanting to be in denial. If its a constant nagging thing in your head I'd just go get retested again, maybe a different kind of test? Just for peace of mind - but only if it would actually give you more peace. And hey, if you do really have it and haven't had an outbreak then count your blessings(: It means your healthy and your body is in control of it!

I always smile from your posts @seeker!(;

When I asked to be tested for everything they included HIV the only one I had to specifically ask for was hsv

I will do that. The place I go is for NEW doctors that's the even scarier thing.

Here is to hoping for integrity!

If my hair starts falling out I am done! Lol, here's to checking the shower drain after every shower. I tend to shed a lot anyways but haven't noticed significant hair loss. I'm not the most observant person in the though.

Hm maybe the acne is from stress. One more question, is it normal to bleed after a pap smear?

So I was wondering if anyone started to experience more acne since taking suppressives, specifically acyclovir. I have noticed a definite increase in acne, not just on my face and I have never gotten body acne before but I just popped one next to my elbow! What are other side effects you all have experienced? Just trying to figure out if anyone else has experienced this. Also! Just had a pap smear for the first time. Worst thing ever! But I did get to educate a doctor. I asked which type I had and he said there was no way of knowing. He showed me my results they used the IgG thing it was 21.something and I was like no there definitely is a way and it does matter! Finally he asked another doctor. His bad. So hopefully in a week or two I will finally know!(:

Well what a great excuse to go visit another country! (: I wish I lived in a big city I'd volunteer for the trials and what not. My biggest concern about my primary post is that people in such positions are deliberately flat out lying about a condition and the medication to treat it. Terrifying. Hard to trust anything.

I would think it would make it safer because you are eliminating a lot of skin to come into contact with.

If you do it would be safest for him to still have a condom on because hsv 1 loves being around the mouth (cold sores) so if it turns out he is positive for it then it could be transmitted your mouth

So, this isn't specifically about H but it IS about Big Pharma and public education. I am going to college for mental health and human services and am currently enrolled in a psychosocial rehabilitation class. We watched a video called Take These Broken Wings and it is about two women with schizophrenia. So here is the meat and potatoes. Basically we are told that schizophrenia is a chemical imbalance. That is the common public knowledge. Apparently this isn't true at all and in an interview with someone who creates the drugs for schizophrenia they admitted that they tell people that so they will take their drugs! The drugs have some kind of effects but they don't know exactly how they work or why they work. AND what is WORSE is (now I don't have the statistics with me) that most success stories about people who recover from schizophrenia are without drugs. The success rate for people recovering from schizophrenia on drugs is much much muuuchhh lower. Mind = blown. Now as I am still in the obsessive constantly thinking about it even though I have maintained a positive attitude for some time now stage of herpes I can't help but think that even if they did find a cure orr whatever, something that makes it nontransmittable or anything... would they even let it out to the public? Its all about the cash and that is so sad, especially considering conditions that are far worse than H. Just thought I'd share.!

I'm glad someone asked because I have been wondering the same things! Thank you Unbroken, Dancer, and Seeker(:

I have always had sensitive skin, and I'm pretty new into H, but whenever I get bumps they are never painful and I have only had the "tingly" prodome symptoms once. I especially get bumps now like an hour after shaving and they are usually gone by the next day. However, anything remotely resembling potential H down there I treat as such just to be safe. The only way to know for sure its getting them checked out.

I feel the same way about my body. Every time I shave I get a shaving irritation, a bunch of tiny little bumps like a rash, and I never thought anything of it until this diagnosis. I always play it safe and wait for it to go away. I think the only to know if its H is to go get it looked at and tested.

@wcsdancer2010 Thank you for sharing, and just know that most of us have something more than herpes to disclose about (if we are brave enough). You are never alone in (I dare say) any experience. Someone out there is going through the exact same emotions. You were right by saying disclosing about herpes is the easy part. This dating game is ridiculous and I find myself doing the same thing. Like, how badly I want to text him, but I've texted first the past five interactions... and then it jumps to holy shit are they losing interest? To, oh my God I am just not good enough. Along my journey of healing I found that I just used herpes as one of the reasons why I felt inadequate, but hello, I felt that way for far longer than knowing about having herpes. Everyone wants to be loved and hell! Everyone deserves to be loved. Being vulnerable is terrifying but it is in those moments where our whole true selves shine through and that is the "us" that needs to be loved. If someone doesn't want that then they are not worthy.

I'm not super comfortable being commando but I kind of compromise by rocking men's boxers and baggier pants

@wevegotthis I admire your level-headedness and calm! At first I completely fell into the stigma of it all and felt devastated. That is until I found H Opp(: I am a 21 year old college student. Very uplifting to meet someone like you!

Thank you for sharing! There was another article in an older cosmo mag about herpes too, I'll try to find it!

I hear you @ele3! I don't envy their ability for casual sex, but it is sooooo frustrating (okay I am going to sound petty for a second) its just frustrating that all of these people just go around screwing anything and everything and they are std free! Ugh. I've only ever had 3 partners all committed and long term and somehow I have hsv and these people don't? Some even got H on their very first sexual experience. Yet I know people my age, in their twenties who literally have had over 30 partners! Say what?! And their only concern is pregnancy. I wish I was smarter about sex and demanded testing. I'm definitely having an off day today. If only, if only... With that being said, just goes to show its all about the gamble, completely random and undiscriminatory. Now that that is out of the way, ultimately @kaybee is absolutely right. We are stronger, definitely smarter, and we can use this to better ourselves.