lostandconfused99

^^ I am not to that point yet. I want to know who gave it to me! I’m still so angry and hurt that that someone gave this to me and didn’t give me the choice to decide if I wanted to be with them or not and risk getting this on my own, knowing the details. To me, it’s still relevant.

@hippyherpy that’s what I thought too! I freaked out a bit when I seen that. My kids, co-workers, etc use the same rest room as I do. A few hours is a long time for someone to go in after me.

Thank you. Like I said, I’m definitely going to have to do a lot more research. I hate having to do it, so I keep putting it off. Almost like if I don’t research it, I don’t have to admit it’s really happening to me. J have disclosed that I am H+ to no one and am mortified of people finding out. I don’t date, so I’m good in that area. And I don’t “hook up”, so I’m good there too. This is all just K much for me still.

@optimist condone don’t fully protect from herpes? I seriously need to do a lot more research on this matter. I have always used protection, since my divorce 4 years ago, and have found myself so upset on how I caught this when I’ve always been extremely careful and use protection.

@RegularGuy I have thoroughly enjoyed reading m this entire post. I can relate to every single thing you felt, aside from the gf part. As a single, 40 yr old woman, I was mortified to find that I had contracted H, especially since I am not sexually active and haven’t been in quite some time. Even when I was, I always used protection. YES, I am 2 mths in from learning I am H+. Some days I feel “normal”, other days I feel unbearable guilt and disgust about myself. It’s a daily struggle, but eventually I’ll get the hang of it all. Thank you for such an inspirational post, even if you didn’t mean for it to be.

@jaee4 I know exactly how you’re feeling. I’ve known for 2 mths that I’m H+, but have no clue how I got it. I haven’t been active with anyone in over a year and when I was I always used protection. I’m lost. Mad. Upset. Disgusted. Angry. Ashamed. And the list goes on... although I haven’t had suicidal thoughts, I do feel like I’ll never be loved because of this. Waiting for the day that I don’t think about this every spare moment I have. Waiting for the years to stop. Just simply waiting! Good luck to you! I hope you find the peace within you so deserve.

Hi all! 40 yr old female in NY. Diagnosed 2 mths ago with HSV1. Still coming to grips with it all. I haven’t told anyone, with the exception of my doctor who told me. I have not been specially active in over a year and my last annual cake back negative for all. This year, with no partners, I am H+. I have no one to talk to. No one who understands. Would love someone to talk to and help me through the ups and downs. Maybe even explain stuff that I’m so confused about.

@HikingGirl do you just apply the lotion like you would on any part of your body? I purchased Cocunut oil lotion, but wasn’t sure how to apply it to my lower regions properly.

I didn’t have an outbreak, just went in for my annual. A couple days later my doctor calls me with the results. I’ve fried, stressed, and stressed some more. I am so lost and feel so disgusting. I don’t have anyone to talk to about this.